Im leaving for korea in approximately 21 hours. Yes, a getaway finally. Im gna shop till i drop, if there's even stuffs for me to buy, considering its winter now! i'll see snow and ski again, happy me. And the sad thing is- i'll def put on a few kgs. Sucks not having the skinny genes!! Been running up and down the house packing me stuffs, tiring much! Anyhow, im gna miss my girlpals and see y'all when im back. Will buy a little souvenior for each and everyone of you. Caught 2012, nice leh. i like the graphics and all like a cool only. Stupid sarah was trembling the whole time and girl was kicking my chair, tsktsk. Then chillax with des andy roy becky dawn they'all. Haven seen them in ages too. Chilling was fun esp when we reminisce and joke about. But there was sth im kinda disappointed. The bond forge btw 2 friends can be easily gone and the trust bulit can collapse easily too. From friends to strangers i guess. Not that im not trying tho, ive tried and did something which i'll never have done okay. I cant be bothered anymore, wtv suits you. Friends come and go, i'll accept that. Enjoy your life then. Im turning in now, gna miss you people, bye!! korea, here i come, xx.


“ Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid to care too much. For fear that the other person may not care as much, or at all.

Big Love to each and everyone of you, for making my birthday a memorable one in college. Esp girls in 09s22 cliquey & sacians. The school had decided to advanced me, double yay but boo cuz ive got more responsibilities, damn. Lesser socialising time and all, freak hell. I want our class to be a complete whole, dont give up k, you!! Been rlly lethargic recently and ive lost weight, damn happy i tell you hehe! But i'll gain it back rlly soon since i luvv sweet stuff. ( oh man zz )! I miss having fun and girls gone wild like there's no tomorrow, sad.



Anw shopped a little too, some goodies to pamper myself after the storm. Been spending way too much and now im broke, really broke ugh. Im sucha spendthrift luh, like another typical girl. Sianballz. oh and dear sarah, no matter what i'l always be there for you! Really, 10 years and still counting okay, wont ps you whatsoever, Woani and you can always find me to hangout, yay! I wont change, definitely. Bffs always! omgz our sacian clique has alrdy like disband in tpjc, sad much! Its the sacians that has brought much love in tpjc. Will miss jas espiecially. Must meet up wokay and bitching session again, funnnnnn ehehehehe.



I miss tonning ( super random) but im kinda not allowed luh unless i lie or something, stayover at smartasses girlies house! Heh. Gareth sarah etc, let's ton soon! Or get someone to open their house so we camp there, like your bff or sth! Sometimes i feel really by annoyed hypocrites or people who simply dont care about your feelings. It just turns me off, really. And not to say those who befriend you for benefits or whatsoever. Think i'd rather keep friends who are true hehe! Oh and im gna flyyyy soon, off to korea babies. Finally a getaway, shall enjoy myself! So hurry date me out before i flyyy! Im getting too lazy to blog, bummer. Shall just end the post here, till then, xoxo.

Things changed, people changed but life still has to go on. Those past memories will be one that is etched in my mind. For someone like me, i hafta go through the hard way, falling real hard then learning from it. Hanging in the air is such a shitass phase, really need to snap out of it soon! For now, its just one step at a time or maybe its just too little too late? We'll see how tmrw. Scary how people come and go. ohwell, i gotta live with it. Camped at ryan's house today with sarah ml gabsiew. Not bad a day. Sorry dewaine, we'll see you soon k, more fun and lovin definitely. X

Tmrw= results day. Excited? Hell no. Why? Because i know the outcome. Im gna fucking retain. I feel like some sore loser. And no, i wont cry. I'll most prolly just roam the school or something. Freak hell. Persuading kenneth to go school tmrw if not i loner shit. Skyped with andrew and yifeng just now. Think that's the last im doing for 09s22. I'll miss you ppl, definitely, esp the girls. You guys have an awesome time alright! omg am dreading school tmrw, how? I want and need to scream ughhhhh. Bye world.


“ The important thing is not to be bitter over life’s disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that everyday won’t be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember, it’s only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home.

One misunderstanding down. Boy, im glad! Today was self proclaimed jimmy neutron day which saw us wearing geeky specs. Mine has degree, no poser kay haha! My friends look cute in theirs, awh. Picspamz on stacey's mac again, luv the glowing effect so cute. Caught love happens with sarah and gareth. A tad too boring for me, kinda prefer the gory ones/ action pac ones. Ice-cream cheft was good, we shld do this weekly, help rid those unhappiness/bitterness, accompanied by the long bus ride home. Feels great to really be in deep thoughts- thinking bout what the future may holds, thinking bout what if you took another path blahblah. Maybe things are not as perfect as it seems, who knows, everything may be just a beautiful facade, people not being real to you and whatnot. Fml. I feel so complicated suddenly, ugh this sucks. Oh and chatting with roy and kenneth was entertaining uh, vulgarities shooting all over heh. And yes me and ken will rlly study hard next year if we get promoted. I dont even have enough rank pts to be Ogl, screw it luh. Ohwell. Was only satisfied with my OP today hehe, tmrw'll see me improving more, more lively i guess. xo!

I've got so much to blog, so much to say but words just cant seem to come out. Im kinda pissed and disappointed, to a small extent actually, for the fact that im becoming more immune to childish acts and those nonsensical stuffs. At least i still cared or bothered. Guys should learn how to think before they act, really. They shld stop making baseless assumptions or jump to conclusion before even finding out the actual details! Oh fyi, i didnt spoil your plans for hitting on my friend. She wasnt interested in you, obviously, so dont come saying its my fault! When things doesnt go their way, all they know is to say ' Its all your fault '. Wtf??! Yesyes the girls are stupid, the girls are useless but are y'all any better? Search yourself and for goodness sake, please be more sensitive to people's feelings. I finally comprehend why more girls are turning to the route of lesbianism.

On a happier note, i got a bunch of girlfriends out there supporting me always, rain or shine. And im not angsty or whatsoever, i just dont get why girls are forever upset by insensitive guys. Ugh. Maybe its just me because i  feel and think alot. Anw im not angry with y'all and wont be, i shall learn to be more forgiving and understanding, yes! I shall just pretend nothing happened so we all can be happier yeah plus no awkward situations.

School's a bore with pw and chinese for the whole day only. Sucks yeah? when there's so much to do for pw. Presentation was alright, im getting it right now but ct said i was too gentle? and zj told me its like im speaking to a bunch of babies. Ha ha! Nvm, i will improve and work even harder, no more lazy Alina! Ohoh and camwhoring using stacey's mac was hella fun. Love the effects. Plus watched 17again on her lappie during breaks, kill time yeah! Nice~ shall get back to I&R now, d r e a d it...

   

Omgosh so much has happened in a night. What a fateful night. Somewhat childish and dumb. Oopsie no offence. Nah tmrw'll be a better day a i guess. Sometimes deep conversations made me realise who's important and who's trustworthy. 2009 has really gotten me into more shit. From friendship, relationships to studies. And now im facing with an impending crisis: will i retain or promote? Stupid jc system! Only a minority will understand. Like whatever. Im beginning to see what humanity is, thanks uh. Anw caught 2 movies alrdy! 500 days of summer and sorority row. Nice. The first was pretty cutesy and the latter was gory. If the plot in 500 days of summer is gna happen real life, then fuck it, heh. More visualz at facebook! The timetable for now is super duper dee boring that we had to resort to playing bubbles for entertainment, o.m.g. Need to get back to pw now, burn midnight oil again sigh. Happy deepavali to one and all, peace.



 

I was disappointed and crestfallen. Sometimes i wonder, why me? I feel so inferior and am kinda demoralised. Seeing my classmates aceing math and i, being the rock bottom makes me feel stupid. I wished i was cleverer. 40mins left for me to emo and rant all i want and then i shall be back to my usual happy self. Life's like this, what to do? For now, i can only pray, hope, wish, blahblah. Just let me promote and i'll mug the shit out next year, i promise. The goal's so near yet so far. Major thanks to those who bothered comforting me. Friends like this are gems and worth keeping (L). I realised being in a jc, not everyone's there to fully share your joy and woes with you, hmm..

Happy me. Papers have been relatively nice on me, at least doable. My definition of doable is just securing a pass. Ha ha. Not expecting much from this exam yet. I see a glimmer of hope for promotion, double yays! Im alrdy like in the post exam mode/mood and feeling lethargic plus thinking of the to-do lists after promos. Hmm..i still want my dslr, going round snapping photos, xploration, keeping em memories.
(L) to photography. Oh and i need to go on a crash diet real soon h8 fats.
Cheer up sarah im always here for you and gym everyday k, like last year till we hit our ideal mass!

Fun tmrw and i need more visualz, big Love esp to the girls.

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched.
They must be felt with the heart.

 
I feel so angsty, grumpy, moody, dumb, annoyed, ugly, fat, inferior. How?
What's wrong with me? Think i can go camouflage myself alrdy.
Neways 1 paper down, 5 more to go. Gp was really just an average paper boo. Thank you classmates, each and every single one of you
for the motivational messages. And hopefully i'll make it happen. Studying in freezing coldness, i like.
I need to rant i need to rant i need to rant i need to rant screamsSS.
I.need.a.short.getaway.too

Will be back with happy posts soon till i readjust myself. With lesser emotions, of course xoxo.